as an eighteen year old with limited experiences to recollect, i feel that one of the greatest thrills is to succesfully deliver a line that hits people. im refering to comedy but its just the same with anything else i suppose- and likewise on stage as well as off it. its not so much being in control of the minds of people and feeling a fleeting spark of power... perhaps its that to a small extent :) ...but more than that, it's feeling that you're atleast worth that one line in all its effect. and when you're doing an entire charecter, you feel stretched -there seems to be so much hidden inside. you can realize and break your own limits. the guru keeps emphasizing that the actor must push the charecter in all possible directions so in time, you can filter the behaviour, traits, speech, etc.. down to the essential.
i guess its the same for HIGHLY inspired writing. atleast with me, its mostly a whole load of shit when read from the frequency of a normal impotent mind. all those realisations seem like meaningless junk.... just plain junk. but then on a closer look, there are shades of amazing clarity which you have to extract and apply or supply into more sane words.
working with the cast of "Rural Phantasy" by the Madras Players has been a real learning experience. in the midst of people who have done numerous more plays and have found themselves as actors, i often lose confidence in myself and end up extremely self-conscious. but when i see that everyone seeks their material from the same sort of instances... i guess its a matter of time and shaping up before i might reach their plain.

a few pictures, then!








"a fleeting spark of power", as caught by Keshu and Farhad(the knob of knobs) from an emergency fire exit window of a tamil nadu express compartment.










the tripod counter-terrorist hot on persuit of enemies through paki hide-outs with Arvind, Danny uncle's bodyguard.














leader of the al-baqwas martyrs' brigade















the spirit of teachers













aaa haaa haaa....